[sasuke you're doing your best. ishi's brow furrows further at their answers, though.]
If we are to do this, I intend to at least see you two safe in return for the risk.
But if neither of you have it... I suppose it is possible it was given to someone else, or stolen. If the latter, we may run into trouble depending upon who has it-- so please keep an eye out for a red and gold brooch. I was told that should be the item in question.
and then he falters - and then his fingers find a brooch that's sitting right on his lapel. the accessory gleams red and gold and he turns his head to look at taka, simultaneously wide-eyed and heartbroken]
You—
[he's already trying to unfasten it from where it rests]
He—?!
[his voice wavers on the syllable, tears already springing in his eye.
[There is a very intense reaction to turn around, and he quivers with the restraint it takes to resist. His arms drop, but the fists ball. He doesn’t turn around, and he doesn’t look back.]
At least no one else has it. [He glances at Ishi a bit.] We’re good.
[he nods to sasuke, but he's already turning his attention to senri, reaching out to take his hands and try to keep him from unfastening the brooch.]
Nito-kun, please-- if he wanted you to be protected, then do not let him down by joining him. We'll see to it that we protect you both. The second item I mentioned is also something Ray-kun was working on before his death, so if you are already safe and our other arrangement for something to protect Shishimaru goes through...
[that's someone else they can keep safe, or just additional insurance.]
[it makes him angry - how calm everyone else. how they seem to accept it so easily, that the brooch is with senri. ishi can take senri's hands, but they're shaking. he's shaking.]
I don't want it!
[and it upsets him also, how impossible it feels to reach any type of calm. he can't place a mask to cover his feelings, not when they're bubbling up to the surface so suddenly and violently. he can't look at taka, or sasuke, or ishi - his gaze is on the ground but he's not seeing anything around him at all.]
Why is it always me...?! Everyone's always worried about me - because I'm the weakest, the most afraid but - if everyone's worried about me, and trying to protect me, there's no room to protect each other!
None of you will let anything happen to me, but I—
[I couldn't do anything for Ray-kun, just because I didn't know enough.
a way to help was right there with him, the entire time, but he never knew. he shakes his head]
I'll be okay. As long as you're all alive... So please - just for one night... Someone else take it...
taka isn't sure how to say how important senri is, and how he absolutely can't die because if he does, then-- it'll be too much. for everyone else, and ray would be angry, and
he rather not think about what it would mean to him.
so taka just looks between sasuke and ishi, hoping one of them takes it because he really doesn't want to. ]
The love so great it’s only anger. It’s jealousy and anger. Sasuke turns around and gets from where he is standing to Senri in two steps. He digs fistfuls of Senri’s clothes and jerks Senri roughly. His face is—full of adoration, soft and hurt and longing and loving, and then woth effort, bitter and angry.] Shut the hell up and keep it on, you damn bastard. [He squeezes his fists.]
Ray didn’t die, and Ray didn’t work his ass off for that so you can go and pawn it off on someone else! I didn’t waste my time trying to defect to that arrogant moron and fail Ray just so you can forsake the one he managed to actually get! You’re the only one of us who can get everyone to win this game without a pile of bodies and a broken world! Don’t you dare spit on his efforts! He is counting on you!
[He lets go all at once, but instead clasps Senri’s face between his palms. His thumbs run over Senri’s cheeks, and then he pulls hastily away and leaves like he’s been scalded. He gives them his back like before, crossing his arms.]
We’re not accepting it. Takaomi is getting one from us. Wear them and shut up.
senri looks between them at that, once he's released. pleading, hoping that someone might be able to take this brooch from him. that someone who's brave enough to put themselves in danger, someone who has a higher chance of getting hurt than he does, someone who's important to him - might be able to protect themselves instead of a brooch being wasted on a stupid, scared bunny that might not be able to accomplish anything in the end at all.
it's funny, how sasuke's so certain that he might be able to get people to win this game, but senri suddenly feels like he can't convince anyone in this room of anything.
maybe it would have been better, to never learn how to form real relationships, if it meant that he didn't find all these people that were so determined to leave him alone in the end.
he shakes his head, tears falling in frustration, and starts for the door]
everything he's wanted to say about this, he doesn't think he should say in front of ishikirimaru and sasuke. it doesn't feel right that it would happen with an audience.
so when starts moving, taka immediately goes after him. he only pauses to look back at ishi and sasuke. ]
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If we are to do this, I intend to at least see you two safe in return for the risk.
But if neither of you have it... I suppose it is possible it was given to someone else, or stolen. If the latter, we may run into trouble depending upon who has it-- so please keep an eye out for a red and gold brooch. I was told that should be the item in question.
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until he hears the word 'brooch'
and then he falters - and then his fingers find a brooch that's sitting right on his lapel. the accessory gleams red and gold and he turns his head to look at taka, simultaneously wide-eyed and heartbroken]
You—
[he's already trying to unfasten it from where it rests]
He—?!
[his voice wavers on the syllable, tears already springing in his eye.
why did he give it to me?]
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he freezes, although it's not as much from shock as the very urgent need to not look at senri. he really can't manage to look at senri right now.
there's a pause, and he instead focuses on a spot on the wall behind ishi. ]
He told me to give it to you and to just make sure you wear it.
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At least no one else has it. [He glances at Ishi a bit.] We’re good.
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[he nods to sasuke, but he's already turning his attention to senri, reaching out to take his hands and try to keep him from unfastening the brooch.]
Nito-kun, please-- if he wanted you to be protected, then do not let him down by joining him. We'll see to it that we protect you both. The second item I mentioned is also something Ray-kun was working on before his death, so if you are already safe and our other arrangement for something to protect Shishimaru goes through...
[that's someone else they can keep safe, or just additional insurance.]
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I don't want it!
[and it upsets him also, how impossible it feels to reach any type of calm. he can't place a mask to cover his feelings, not when they're bubbling up to the surface so suddenly and violently. he can't look at taka, or sasuke, or ishi - his gaze is on the ground but he's not seeing anything around him at all.]
Why is it always me...?! Everyone's always worried about me - because I'm the weakest, the most afraid but - if everyone's worried about me, and trying to protect me, there's no room to protect each other!
None of you will let anything happen to me, but I—
[I couldn't do anything for Ray-kun, just because I didn't know enough.
a way to help was right there with him, the entire time, but he never knew. he shakes his head]
I'll be okay. As long as you're all alive... So please - just for one night... Someone else take it...
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taka isn't sure how to say how important senri is, and how he absolutely can't die because if he does, then-- it'll be too much. for everyone else, and ray would be angry, and
he rather not think about what it would mean to him.
so taka just looks between sasuke and ishi, hoping one of them takes it because he really doesn't want to. ]
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The love so great it’s only anger. It’s jealousy and anger. Sasuke turns around and gets from where he is standing to Senri in two steps. He digs fistfuls of Senri’s clothes and jerks Senri roughly. His face is—full of adoration, soft and hurt and longing and loving, and then woth effort, bitter and angry.] Shut the hell up and keep it on, you damn bastard. [He squeezes his fists.]
Ray didn’t die, and Ray didn’t work his ass off for that so you can go and pawn it off on someone else! I didn’t waste my time trying to defect to that arrogant moron and fail Ray just so you can forsake the one he managed to actually get! You’re the only one of us who can get everyone to win this game without a pile of bodies and a broken world! Don’t you dare spit on his efforts! He is counting on you!
[He lets go all at once, but instead clasps Senri’s face between his palms. His thumbs run over Senri’s cheeks, and then he pulls hastily away and leaves like he’s been scalded. He gives them his back like before, crossing his arms.]
We’re not accepting it. Takaomi is getting one from us. Wear them and shut up.
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You are needed, here. I understand you want to see us safe just as badly, but we will be able to look out for each other at night.
[he's quiet for a few moments, there.]
There is nothing we can do about the past. Ray-kun made his decision, and this was the result-- we are not going against his wishes now.
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senri looks between them at that, once he's released. pleading, hoping that someone might be able to take this brooch from him. that someone who's brave enough to put themselves in danger, someone who has a higher chance of getting hurt than he does, someone who's important to him - might be able to protect themselves instead of a brooch being wasted on a stupid, scared bunny that might not be able to accomplish anything in the end at all.
it's funny, how sasuke's so certain that he might be able to get people to win this game, but senri suddenly feels like he can't convince anyone in this room of anything.
maybe it would have been better, to never learn how to form real relationships, if it meant that he didn't find all these people that were so determined to leave him alone in the end.
he shakes his head, tears falling in frustration, and starts for the door]
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everything he's wanted to say about this, he doesn't think he should say in front of ishikirimaru and sasuke. it doesn't feel right that it would happen with an audience.
so when starts moving, taka immediately goes after him. he only pauses to look back at ishi and sasuke. ]
Sorry.
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and then he turns his head and looks away. The edge of his face is soft and pained.]
I'm going to talk to someone before we go out. I'll find you after.